[x] i really
[x] didnt feel a thing.
[x] until i repelled.
[x] i broke up
[x] the magnets.
[x] deeply hurt..
[x] broken hearted.
[x] i really need
[x] a shoulder to lean on.
28 六月 2006
6/28/2006 05:49:00 下午
i.need.care.n.love
我想。。 就從昨天開始。 世界上多了兩個人天天抱者思念與痛苦入眠。。。 i wonder if u will or not. but its vry tough for me. loving someone is indeed hard. but forcing yourself to not love someone u love is even harder. im doin this impossible, so are you...
dont wish to say anymore. it really breaks my heart.. i guess. we were so close, til we're like two magnets. stuck tgether, but i felt nth. until i repelled. i can really feel that strong 'magnetic' force.. the feeling was just so strong. the hurt was just so deep... 人家說， 愛得越深，傷的越多。。 is this true? i guess so. or perhaps it was the long time we spent with each other. until we were so used to each other. that we started to take the love between us for granted.
k i must stop here. i shall not cry. cryin makes me look ugly.
tday. in sch.. at first really wan die. din feel like studyin.. just noe i have to keep writin notes to numb myself. to stop myself from thinkin.. really had no appetite to eat. ]= when i see the porridge. i rmb how u taught me to eat when the porridge was hot.. i really cried... at that time, i needed a shoulder badly. but no one was there... )= sigh.. in the end, still wasted the porridge n the can drink.
l8r on i realized. i canot be so selfish. to torture myself n let my frenx worry.. )= sorry laopos n hm. n clayton... sorry i just poured out everything without thinkin what u will think. sigh... 後來我振作起來了。。開始笑了。。 but that, was just a facade. i just didnt wan u guys to worry.. im sorry... but lunch break... 我還是忍不住哭了。。。 i needed the shoulder more now. but no one was there... =^( i really needed someone to care for me.. wat i needed was more den just the tissues. i need a shoulder to lean on...
i guess i have to stop all these nonsense thinkin. there's no turnin back, like he said. i guess. my favourite moments on earth. would be year 2005-year2006 june 27. bcox i still had u.
